On the advice of my mum, I've started taking my pills at night instead of in the morning. For the past couple of weeks I've been so tired during the day, to the point of nearly falling asleep. Playing the PlayStation only until about nine. Ridiculous. So I'm experimenting.
Today I feel good. I'm in a good mood. I'm not so tired. Only a mild headache. If this works out, it'll be really good for me. Then I've only got my stomach problems to deal with. Been feeling really bloated of late in what I think is my large intestine and especially after eating. It's been going on for a good few weeks now. Coinciding with my dosage going up, but that could just be a coincidence. Could be constipation, IBS, a hernia... Who knows. I should probably see a doctor about that huh?
Hopefully going out with friends on Friday if plans don't change. Should be good. Going to experiment with not drinking or only having three bottles of something at most. I've figured that's about as much as I can drink without it affecting my mood too much the next day. I'm really not good with alcohol. Once it's in me, I have no will power left and I could keep drinking all night. I will try my best.
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Thursday, 28 April 2016
Tuesday, 15 March 2016
Blogging With Depression.
..aaaaaaaand I'm back.
That's right, everyone's favourite chronic over sharer is back and ready to roll. There's a funny paradox when it comes to blogging with depression. The best thing you can do when suffering from a bout of depression is talking. Getting it off your chest. Not that there's anything on my chest making depressed, but simply talking can help. Well it's the very last thing I seem to want to do.
I've been down. Very down. For a long time. Christmas was very hard for me. I didn't enjoy it at all and I love Christmas. I've barely been out. Not seen anyone. I'm on medication so it's not all doom and gloom all the time. I'm coping. Day to day is ok. But I'm not my self and I don't want to see anyone.
Well my medication has now been increased and I've been slowly coming out of it. I'm in quite a good place now. And I'm ready to face the world again. The Internet world at least. If I do disappear from blogging again, I'm never far from a computer and you can usually find me on Facebook (feel free to follow), Twitter, Instagram, etc.
It was such bad timing. I'd just gotten the writing bug back and had bought a site domain to start writing news and articles on video games. So that is something I'm going to be concentrating on. Just in time for the conference season. Hope I can keep up with it all.
My PC which I used to edit is bust at the moment. I'm very slowly trying to figure out what's wrong with it and fixing it. If I do get back in to YouTube it'll be with unedited videos for now, which could be interesting.
Life is cool at the moment. Just flowing and all relaxed like. Another reason for not going out much is we are totally broke. Two kids in childcare is stretching us to our limits. Got another couple of years until the younger one is in school, then we'll be absolutely fine again. But now is tough.
But Laura's got her roller derby, I've got my games and we've got Netflix. We've made sure we can still do those or we'll go mad. Played some amazing games recently. Not gonna go in to lists and catch ups, but I might work some of them in to some future articles on my gaming site. But the hype train has definitely hit me square in the face when it comes to No Man's Sky. Actually counting down the days for that one. Thinking about taking a few days off to play it! It's like being in college again.
Currently enjoying the second series of Bosch on Amazon and looking forward to Daredevil Season 2 on Netflix, starting this Friday. Not seen many films but I did manage to go see Star Wars twice. Huge fan and loved the film. Can't wait for it come out on Bluray in April so I can watch it every Saturday morning until I can recite the script by heart like I did with original trilogy.
Off to re-heat a suasage and bacon hotpot I made last night. It's good to be back. I missed you guys.
Take care x
That's right, everyone's favourite chronic over sharer is back and ready to roll. There's a funny paradox when it comes to blogging with depression. The best thing you can do when suffering from a bout of depression is talking. Getting it off your chest. Not that there's anything on my chest making depressed, but simply talking can help. Well it's the very last thing I seem to want to do.
I've been down. Very down. For a long time. Christmas was very hard for me. I didn't enjoy it at all and I love Christmas. I've barely been out. Not seen anyone. I'm on medication so it's not all doom and gloom all the time. I'm coping. Day to day is ok. But I'm not my self and I don't want to see anyone.
Well my medication has now been increased and I've been slowly coming out of it. I'm in quite a good place now. And I'm ready to face the world again. The Internet world at least. If I do disappear from blogging again, I'm never far from a computer and you can usually find me on Facebook (feel free to follow), Twitter, Instagram, etc.
It was such bad timing. I'd just gotten the writing bug back and had bought a site domain to start writing news and articles on video games. So that is something I'm going to be concentrating on. Just in time for the conference season. Hope I can keep up with it all.
My PC which I used to edit is bust at the moment. I'm very slowly trying to figure out what's wrong with it and fixing it. If I do get back in to YouTube it'll be with unedited videos for now, which could be interesting.
Life is cool at the moment. Just flowing and all relaxed like. Another reason for not going out much is we are totally broke. Two kids in childcare is stretching us to our limits. Got another couple of years until the younger one is in school, then we'll be absolutely fine again. But now is tough.
But Laura's got her roller derby, I've got my games and we've got Netflix. We've made sure we can still do those or we'll go mad. Played some amazing games recently. Not gonna go in to lists and catch ups, but I might work some of them in to some future articles on my gaming site. But the hype train has definitely hit me square in the face when it comes to No Man's Sky. Actually counting down the days for that one. Thinking about taking a few days off to play it! It's like being in college again.
Currently enjoying the second series of Bosch on Amazon and looking forward to Daredevil Season 2 on Netflix, starting this Friday. Not seen many films but I did manage to go see Star Wars twice. Huge fan and loved the film. Can't wait for it come out on Bluray in April so I can watch it every Saturday morning until I can recite the script by heart like I did with original trilogy.
Off to re-heat a suasage and bacon hotpot I made last night. It's good to be back. I missed you guys.
Take care x
Thursday, 5 March 2015
A Lot Better
Feeling a lot better today. The cloud has lifted, leaving only a light fog. Had the same old problem last night, that I didn't know what to do with myself. So Laura and I just sat on the sofa watching YouTube clips. Then I fancied a go on Destiny but immediately turned it off again as I was instantly bored. So I decided to have a go on the PC. Couldn't decide which of my new games to play so fished out a pile of old games instead. Settled on Titan Quest, an old isometric RPG that me and my brother used to play. I think that's what I'm lacking right now. A good old, huge RPG. Really looking forward to getting Pillars Of Eternity and Wasteland 2 and I think I might get Cities: Skylines too after watching a few videos of it in action (yes I know this isn't a RPG).
Haven't got much planned for this evening. Gotta pick up the kids on my bike as Laura's working late. Might persuade Laura to do a #DearMe video for YouTube or I might start editing a video we shot on the weekend. Probably end up playing Titan Quest again. A good alternative until I can afford one of those new RPGs.
Take care x
Wednesday, 4 March 2015
Depression
Really not having a good time lately. A combination of missing my pills, home and work stuff. All I wanna do is go home and hide. I noticed that I don't post much on social media when I'm down. I usually post everything. What I'm eating, watching, drinking, doing, going. When I'm down, I don't. Not because I'm shying away from social interaction, although that is certainly part of it, but because I'm actually not doing anything. I wonder around the house totally bored. I've got loads of really cool games that I'm really enjoying playing at the moment and we're watching some good things on Netflix and Amazon. But when I'm feeling like this, I don't want to do anything. I want to do something, but everything I think of doing, I don't wanna do! It's infuriating! Hopefully it'll pass soon and I can get on with enjoying life. I've got some plans for some YouTube videos. I definitely can't do them when I'm like this. Everyone who watched will probably kill themselves!
Wrote a whole load of shit after this but decided to delete it, because I know it's just the depression talking. I'm going to be fine in a couple of days.
Take care x
Wrote a whole load of shit after this but decided to delete it, because I know it's just the depression talking. I'm going to be fine in a couple of days.
Take care x
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