Vlogging, Drunk Live Tweeting and Re-Building Cardiff

Got so many ideas for vlogs. Late last night, like at two in the morning I was having great ideas. And on the bike this morning. I wish there was record function in my brain. The scripts I was coming up with were great. Now I can't remember much. Just bits a pieces. Anyway. Hopefully I'll actually get in to the swing of things soon and actually start vlogging and specific things as well as a weekly round up with Laura and the kids.

Gym again tonight. Feeling a bit stiff and very tired! Not quite sure what my plans for later are. It's Comic Relief tonight so I'll probably end up drunk live tweeting that. So make sure you join me for that! But I know I'm gonna want to play Cities: Skylines and see what Xur has to offer on Destiny. I guess I could do that tomorrow.

I really want to make an authentic re-creation of Cardiff in Cities. Someone has uploaded a Cardiff map to the Steam Workshop but it's not very good. Will have a go at importing my own height map and tweak and populate in the map editor. Although SimCity was very limited in what it could do, it was interesting to see how all the traffic would congest in the same places as it does in real life. With Cities' much better simulation, I can't wait to see the results!

Take care x

The Only Way To Lose Weight

First gym session in ages last night. Didn't think I was hurting that much his morning until I got on my bike. Boy my legs didn't appreciate that! I've been reading a lot about gym work and weight loss. The more I read, the more I'm convinced. It's all bollocks. It's been scientifically proven that muscle burns three calories more per pound, per day than fat. Three calories. So does muscle help burn fat? Sure. Will it help you lose weight? Yeah, in about fifteen years maybe. The only way, THE ONLY WAY to lose weight is calorie deficit. All those bullshit diets. Every single one of them. All they're doing is dressing up calorie deficit in new and fancy way to get you to buy in to their products and schemes.

Use more energy than you put in. Lose weight. Simple as.

And the most efficient way of burning calories at the gym is cardio. So that's my bag from now on. Maybe when I've lost some weight down the line, I might want to tone up for aesthetic reasons, but for now I have no use for more muscle in my every day life. It simply won't make a difference. So for the last two days I've had a 350 calorie deficit. Which is not much and I don't know what that equates to wight loss wise. But it's a start. We'll see what happens.

Take care x

Slight Change Of Plan

Slight change of plan yesterday. We realized we had now food in the house so we went shopping instead of me going to the gym. So I'm going tonight instead. I'm really tired after playing four hours of Cities: Skylines last night and the ride to work today was a struggle. So the gym should be interesting eh?

Cities: Skylines is awesome. Keep an eye out on my YouTube channel for a "review" in a day or two. Suffice to say that it's everything any SimCity fan could want. I've been watching a lot of videos pre-launch, getting very excited and it hasn't disappointed.

The Grueling Task

Man I'm looking forward to playing Cities: Skylines tonight (as long as the launch all goes to plan). It's everything SimCity should have been and more. Made by a small studio in Sweden by nine people. Love it!

But first I have to get through the grueling task of my first gym session. I had my induction on Sunday, so I feel a lot more comfortable about just walking in there and doing my thing on my own. Been given an eight week all over weights regime by Laura. Even though it's going to start off light, I bet I wont be able to walk tomorrow. Cycling to work tomorrow with tight muscles is scaring the shit out of me. I'm really worried about gaining too much muscle and looking like a valleys roid head. I seem to do that. Well I did when I was younger anyway.

I was ten stone in college when I did no exercise at all and then I started judo and in three months I had put on two stone of muscle (and beer, probably). I don't want that to happen again. My aim is to lose weight, although I'm not planning on doing much about my eating other than trying to shrink my portion sizes. I eat a well balanced diet anyway. I always have. And I don't really indulge that much. Ice cream here, bottle of wine there... I don't go cray cray. Wish me luck.

Take care x

A Lot Better

Feeling a lot better today. The cloud has lifted, leaving only a light fog. Had the same old problem last night, that I didn't know what to do with myself. So Laura and I just sat on the sofa watching YouTube clips. Then I fancied a go on Destiny but immediately turned it off again as I was instantly bored. So I decided to have a go on the PC. Couldn't decide which of my new games to play so fished out a pile of old games instead. Settled on Titan Quest, an old isometric RPG that me and my brother used to play. I think that's what I'm lacking right now. A good old, huge RPG. Really looking forward to getting Pillars Of Eternity and Wasteland 2 and I think I might get Cities: Skylines too after watching a few videos of it in action (yes I know this isn't a RPG).

Haven't got much planned for this evening. Gotta pick up the kids on my bike as Laura's working late. Might persuade Laura to do a #DearMe video for YouTube or I might start editing a video we shot on the weekend. Probably end up playing Titan Quest again. A good alternative until I can afford one of those new RPGs.

Take care x

Depression

Really not having a good time lately. A combination of missing my pills, home and work stuff. All I wanna do is go home and hide. I noticed that I don't post much on social media when I'm down. I usually post everything. What I'm eating, watching, drinking, doing, going. When I'm down, I don't. Not because I'm shying away from social interaction, although that is certainly part of it, but because I'm actually not doing anything. I wonder around the house totally bored. I've got loads of really cool games that I'm really enjoying playing at the moment and we're watching some good things on Netflix and Amazon. But when I'm feeling like this, I don't want to do anything. I want to do something, but everything I think of doing, I don't wanna do! It's infuriating! Hopefully it'll pass soon and I can get on with enjoying life. I've got some plans for some YouTube videos. I definitely can't do them when I'm like this. Everyone who watched will probably kill themselves!

Wrote a whole load of shit after this but decided to delete it, because I know it's just the depression talking. I'm going to be fine in a couple of days.

Take care x

Leonard Nimoy

I was really upset when I heard the news about Leonard Nimoy's death the other day. I was in a pizza place, waiting for my order when I read the news on my phone. I nearly cried. Star Trek was such a massive part of our upbringing. Dad was mildly obsessed. We had a load of episodes on VHS and we'd regularly watch them on weekend mornings before my parents got up. We had so many Star Trek toys and book and whenever we'd play Star Trek, I was Mr. Spock. I vaguely remember playing a Star Trek RPG when I was in school and I played a science officer just like Spock. Also our latest obsession on the TV was Fringe which Leonard Nimoy played such a huge part in.

It's lovely reading all the nice things people close to him are saying on Twitter etc. It's nice to know that he was a lovely man that everyone enjoyed working with and just being with. I'm genuinely going to miss seeing him on my screens. The first celebrity death that has truly affected me.

Live long and prosper x